MS & ME

Ah i remember now what happened next it was my memory or the lack of it to be honest . I seemed to be holding down a conversation with some one and i,d be chatting away and then nothing ,blank mental block it didn't matter if i was talking to someone on the phone it even didn't matter if i was talking to my wee girls pet ( lol ) the feeling was the same .You always hear people saying at times "oh wait its on the tip of my tongue" but this was completely different this was worrying people around me started to comment that i was taking drugs and that's why i wasn't able to think that was the reason i couldn't remember things much to my annoyance.

Time passed once again and it seemed to become more frequent so after kicking the living hell out of myself i decided another trip to my GP . This time we talked about this problem and how it was affecting my life on a nearly daily basis. Once again the problem of nerveless came to light and that might be affecting my thought process and finding it hard to interact with people. This did not sound like me i might not be the most confident person but it was the simple things like talking to my wife , children and family that it was taking place when i know and should have been quite confident to hold down simple chats .

Finally it was starting to take a dent with me i found myself shying away from people , situations and the norm. The only way i can describe how this mental block was like , it was for example having a book which covered all situations and posted accordingly , and with in them posts there were words which would link to certain material . So i would find that i had to open the book and start to flick through it until i came across a certain post or word which would then hopefully remember me what i had been talking about if i remembered that is. This was a hard process and to this day i still have real problems trying to organise these different books in my mind , but for the time being i will go and hopefully catch up on more stuff ,that's if i remember lol.........